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Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 7:33 PM
i am SO not used to waking up on a Saturday morning with no Lesson Plans to do!! not that im complaining! =) for the past 8 weeks or so, i had been slogging so hard to finish my markings and lesson plannings and preparing for observations. cant believe i did it. my 3-8 is still giving me problems now and then but at least they are better behaved and know my expectations for them now. Which is good. Geraldine is gg to take over them when my CT goes on maternity leave next week, omg, i really wish her all the VERY best. i must say its really a challenge, even my CT of many years experience have a tough time handing them. i really learnt alot of things throughout this period of time. 1. That i have a very fierce side i used to think that i am a person who does not have a temper. i mean not many things can really make me angry, mayb sometimes i am "bochup" but ya u noe wad i mean. but being in a class of 40 noisy & playful children. it is hard not to feel irritated. last time i used to think why my teachers keep scolding the class, now i understand FULLY how they felt. i started throwing things in class this week which i never thot of doing that before. 2. That i am becoming naggy due to the nature of this job arghhh... but we all agreed is the truth for every teacher. it's like we have to remind students : to keep quiet, to bring their work, the formula, leave a line.... blah blah blah. to a point that we feel that we cant stand ourselves. now we understand why mothers are also naggy.=p 3. That there is a great disparity in a good class and weak class we hate to admit it. but we really would prefer a good class. it's like so much things can be done in 2 periods. whereas in a weaker class especially one with discipline problem, you need to like spend 20 minutes or so disciplining them, asking them to behave themselves. its hard not to love children who answers your questions, do their work quietly, respect you, always ready to learn (motivated) and are self-disciplined. Having said that, i guess the satifactory of helping a weak class to learn all these values is genuinely priceless. but it requires super alot of effort to do that. 4. That i am becoming a control-freak The system is such that teachers need to be in full control to depict successful classroom management. Although we want every student to behave and do exactly what we tell them to do but e question is-- isit beneficial to the students? do we really want to turn them into factory workers? mayb sometimes in the midst of getting things done, we should stop and think that every child is different and would require different ways to help them become a better learner. it's hard though in a class of freaking 40. 5. That teachers bascially have no life. mayb trainee teachers who are on practicum. its sad. but our lesson plans has become our best friend if not lover. 6. But still, i kinda enjoy what im doing. for now. =) seeing the students learning something becos of the effort you put in makes up for all the long-sufferings, frustrations & sore-throat. i really admire my teachers and their decision to be one. you lose alot but you also gain alot (more). |