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Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 4:56 AM
 Miss Selfridge private sales + tea at Paragon. it was a pretty nice & simple affair, and they even invited benefit to give some tips on make ups. gonna get their "that gal" soon. $62 wor! i kinda like benefit!!  out shopping with pigpig almost the whole day in town. our feet r screaming for rest. it was real shopping therapy for me. destress!! although i only got a royce chocolate for my CT. hee but window shopping is GREAT too. how good if every weekend is so relaxing .  today we had a bazzar at expo conference room!! our stall name : BABARELLA. =) we had really ALOT of stuffs and the crowd was abit pathetic...our sales was brisk but quite good compared to the stall beside us. heee but it was fun la. i bought for myself a grey jumper for a freaking $4. can u believe it. one stupid auntie tried to bargain my leggings which i sell @ $10 for 1, she wanted 3 for $10. really too much... super irritating i told her impossible lor auntie liddat i cant even cover my cost price. some customers really make us wanna ROLL our eyes.... =) sum had a happy weekend  Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 7:33 PM
i am SO not used to waking up on a Saturday morning with no Lesson Plans to do!! not that im complaining! =) for the past 8 weeks or so, i had been slogging so hard to finish my markings and lesson plannings and preparing for observations. cant believe i did it. my 3-8 is still giving me problems now and then but at least they are better behaved and know my expectations for them now. Which is good. Geraldine is gg to take over them when my CT goes on maternity leave next week, omg, i really wish her all the VERY best. i must say its really a challenge, even my CT of many years experience have a tough time handing them. i really learnt alot of things throughout this period of time. 1. That i have a very fierce side i used to think that i am a person who does not have a temper. i mean not many things can really make me angry, mayb sometimes i am "bochup" but ya u noe wad i mean. but being in a class of 40 noisy & playful children. it is hard not to feel irritated. last time i used to think why my teachers keep scolding the class, now i understand FULLY how they felt. i started throwing things in class this week which i never thot of doing that before. 2. That i am becoming naggy due to the nature of this job arghhh... but we all agreed is the truth for every teacher. it's like we have to remind students : to keep quiet, to bring their work, the formula, leave a line.... blah blah blah. to a point that we feel that we cant stand ourselves. now we understand why mothers are also naggy.=p 3. That there is a great disparity in a good class and weak class we hate to admit it. but we really would prefer a good class. it's like so much things can be done in 2 periods. whereas in a weaker class especially one with discipline problem, you need to like spend 20 minutes or so disciplining them, asking them to behave themselves. its hard not to love children who answers your questions, do their work quietly, respect you, always ready to learn (motivated) and are self-disciplined. Having said that, i guess the satifactory of helping a weak class to learn all these values is genuinely priceless. but it requires super alot of effort to do that. 4. That i am becoming a control-freak The system is such that teachers need to be in full control to depict successful classroom management. Although we want every student to behave and do exactly what we tell them to do but e question is-- isit beneficial to the students? do we really want to turn them into factory workers? mayb sometimes in the midst of getting things done, we should stop and think that every child is different and would require different ways to help them become a better learner. it's hard though in a class of freaking 40. 5. That teachers bascially have no life. mayb trainee teachers who are on practicum. its sad. but our lesson plans has become our best friend if not lover. 6. But still, i kinda enjoy what im doing. for now. =) seeing the students learning something becos of the effort you put in makes up for all the long-sufferings, frustrations & sore-throat. i really admire my teachers and their decision to be one. you lose alot but you also gain alot (more). Friday, April 17, 2009 @ 3:38 AM
Next week will be term 2 week 5 if im not wrong. 3 more weeks to go. Should i be happy? I really dunno. Cos the fact that its just a temporary escape as in we will come back FULL load right? just without the stupid lesson planning... + tons of paper work and other commitments. why do teachers need to work so hard and even so u r not necessary guranteed a good grading from what i know.and sometimes students don even appreciate it (we shldnt expect they will cos we will be in deep dissapointment then). im starting to think that passion is so cheap when you see the reality of what goes on in a bad classroom seriously. who can understand the stress of teachers unless you are one yourself? many think that imposing rules and mayb giving them rewards can solve the problem, they do, but only as effective as you taking panadol. the effect just wears off. im just glad that by looking at my teaching apt form, im safe. but so what. i think NIE should implement a new course "Stress Management".. even so i don think it helps. i think i just want to finish serving my bond for now. ok mayb im abit SLOW (many of my frens already broke down or want to break down). becos i felt so only this week. or mayb its my naughty class, agitating me last 2 periods of today, mayb its now then i start to think back and wonder if all this was really what i wanted to do.... mayb i will get through this period with a new perspective & hope... mayb someone or some things may change things... we never know for sure. i just thank God for giving me the strength and courage to do my best.. and being faithful to me no matter what happens.. =) |